sometimes change is everything.

the word 'fuck' is the only thing that makes sense. so don't bother asking questions about the problem because nobody, and i mean nobody, will understand. forget trying, you'll never get close to the root of it. offer some help or make a dick out of it, it will still be stale oh stale. so do anything you want.

when everything seems to be in a complete mess or rather when everything seems to be equalizing itself to the definition of the word 'wreck', follow this step by step instruction:

1) accept the fact that you've been shot
2) blend yourself
3) sleep forever

let all the hurt inside of you die, you're frozen.
-madonna

holy crap i sound like an emotional basket case on the verge of suicide paired with a twist of sadism. but come on, don't we all have our moments sometimes.

but with cellophane dreams, i will smile. :)

disabled cactus and red ribbon.

wwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! :D :D :D

cacatus and the white aeroplane flew home.



bright lights.

that "fuck everything" attitude is rocking my soul right at this moment. i need some form of help. lost is never the way to go.

now that aside.

(in the most cheesiest of ways) i'd like to grow old with you. now together everybody, "SAVE IT MAL!" whagsahsgahsgahsghgHSGASHAGSHAGSHASGHASGHsghasghasghags!!!

here's to you ponyboy. :)



wrong.

knowledge about my flaws will never ever be a valid reason for you to take advantage of it. reflect on yourself and think twice about wanting to blow your own trumpet because the whole idea of "i am concerned" or "i care for you" is treated far too lightly. your fair share of zero pointers i shall not mock at but get this- it is impossible to force feed a brain with personal beliefs. all of us, we do not share one brain. there is a variety.

you broke the cycle and you will not be able to understand its importance because you're unfortunately living in this isolated box with only yourself to think about. that is how selfish and ridiculous you are. discussions about my apparent lifeless human self is a humilation to yourself. fitting yourself into my bubble is not a happening sight. your ways were never my ways to begin with, so make a move. you are a contradiction, wires entangled. yet, i admire your courage to make several creative turns in the cycle that you broke but little did you know that the direction of sheer stupidity is coming back at you. enough of the pretence, this is not an exhibition. get a grip.

and funny how i had that big amount of respect for you. now, you just reek of digust.

your presence is not requested, good day.

and if you hate me.

then hate me so good,
that you can let me out of this hell when you're around.

- damien rice

i promise you, i have better things to do than to sit here and listen to your bullshit. a pity you simply cannot understand the fact that you're just twice as bad as what you think of me. seriously save it. i am certainly not claiming that i am oh so wonderful but look, come on, how else am i supposed to be reacting towards such? i for one think you need to get over yourself and this entire facade you're creating. i pretty much stick by the 101 list based on et cetera in my head, sigh what a sad, sad story. so if you have that much you detest about me, your claims about my obnoxious behaviour and your views about malvina as a whole, then i suggest you take your sorry ass out before you suffer further.

you jolly well know yourself that you don't have to go through all this bullcrap. at the end of the day i'll be the one getting the "wakaka" and the "told you so" and the "you asked for it". i could say i'm fully prepared coz hey, not like i've never gone through that before. to sum this all up, like i always say, i'll be the one experiencing a major loss at the end of the day. then again, not like it matters so, enjoy.

(and i can so imagine you cursing now, go ahead.)

here are some suggestions:

1. emotional basket case
2. fuck face
3. ccb

WWWEEEEEE!!! I AM 19 (TURNING 20) AND FUCKING CHILDISH, I GUESS, I DO NEED TO GET OVER MYSELF!!! WAHGSAHGASGHghagshaghasghGSHAGSHAGSHASGHgshasg!!! :)

let me out.

i don't get it, you don't get it, we don't get it. nobody gets each other these days. funny how it is almost impossible for an accurate balance to exist. thus, it'll only work out in some cases.

the apparent best friend who is the total opposite of what should be.
the apparent emotional basket case.

let me sleep forever and i will be fine. this is a flop and it's about time to get ready- start packing those bags!

give me a fucking break.

it's insecurities we're talking about here. i deserve a bit of an opportunity to feel the pinch even if i have absolutely no clue about anything.

now SAVE IT for some other day. i'm done with all the politics already.

i quit and i'm off.

bet you a pony.

i guess i do like it like that, i can be so very happy.

with ambiguity comes an adventure, we'll ride.

you win.

"i'm bored of listening to you, night."



watch you burn.

fuck the pretence, fuck the unnecessary emotions, fuck the time, fuck the effort, fuck the everything.

(well at least someone's got manners.)

stale, let me sleep forever.

your eyelashes.

i went on an amusement park ride with you. funny how i've been feeling endless bliss ever since.

because you are golden my ponyboy, i love you.

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